Learning to Listen
For me, embodiment is about accepting and being all that I am in all aspects of life.
Along with embodying every piece of who I am, it's about feeling and being in my body. And even deeper, listening to what my body is telling me AND choosing to act accordingly.
It started with learning to feel and accept. At one time, I had walls so big that I couldn't feel anything and I shut out a big part of who I was. Once I worked through those layers, then I had to learn how to be in my body.
That was huge. I realized how little I was truly grounded into my body. That took a lot of work. But it was worth it. And then once I got there, I was able to lean in and listen.
However, often times if my mind or ego didn't like what it was hearing, I would ignore it. So my body and spirit started conspiring to force me to act.
A recent example...I'm becoming increasingly sensitive to wheat and chemical/processed food products. My son had his birthday this past weekend and normally, I would bake him a cake from scratch. But I had a lot on the go so I opted for cake mix and a container of icing.
When I got home, I looked at the ingredients on the cake mix in a bit of shock. And then the "buttercream" icing had neither butter or cream in it and a pile of junk and chemicals. Ah well, this one time was going to be ok.
The kids loved the cake and despite my better judgment, I ate a piece. In less than a half hour, I had a stomachache and headache. That headache progressed into a debilitating migraine that took me out for the rest of the day and I was still feeling it into the next.
All I could hear was, "Are you going to listen to your body, Danette? You can't eat this stuff."
There's no ignoring it. Not for me anyway. Certain foods make me feel really sick and I can often feel the inflammation and pain they cause in my body.
And the same goes for energy. Certain places, people, and situations make me feel physically ill. Even if there's a part of me that wants to be there or participate.
What does that mean for my long-term health if I continually ignore these things?
It's just not worth it.
I have learned that I need to listen to and respect what my body tells me and in doing so, I'm able to lean in more deeply to my own embodiment on all levels.
The all of who I am.
And that's worth everything.