Be a Quitter

I was ready to quit, but then I realized that I just needed to be willing to walk away.

After all, it is the ultimate surrender. When you feel like your back is against the wall in one of those "what do you want from me?" moments with life, and you reach the pinnacle where you're willing to leave it all behind.

That happened to me in the spring of this year. Through a whole series of events, I was willing (and ready) to walk away from my practice. I was prepared to return to the workforce. I wrote a resume, applied for jobs, went through interviews, turned a couple things down.

It felt so clear at the time that I was supposed to let go, but the most peculiar thing happened. No other door opened. I was left floating in a liminal space, for months, with no idea what it was that I was to do next.

I was confused. Why did I feel so guided to walk away when nothing else was open? And then I realized...

I wasn't supposed to quit. Spirit just needed me to have that willingness. To let go and loosen the hold so that I was able to see from a different perspective.

So many things that I was trying to control, push toward, and push away simply needed to be released. Yet another layer of shadow work to be revealed. Quite possibly my biggest yet. A reckoning with my higher self to clean out the beliefs, thoughts, habits, and all the things that were not aligned, on a level I didn't even know existed.

And in that, I found that I simply needed to be willing to quit so that I could see things in a different way.

Through that process, I signed up for some CE courses with a massage school. I remembered something when I stepped into that classroom.

I have many, many passions. I love to lead women's circles. I love to firewalk. I love kundalini yoga. But maybe I lost touch with one of my biggest passions. Maybe there was too much distortion in the way.

Because I absolutely love working with these crazy, complicated little meat suits that we all reside in. I love the complexity. The beauty. The puzzle of it all. And I love to find ways to help people feel better, more embodied, more settled, within their vessel.

How could I ever think I was supposed to quit?

I often say that the thing we resist the most is what we're actually meant to turn toward.

I'm grateful for the new perspective I've gained through this journey. I'm grateful for the clarity and the renewed passion. I'm excited to work with clients in new ways.

And I share this with you because maybe you too don't need to quit. Maybe you just need to be willing to so that life can restructure and bring you a new perspective.